Lately I do not know what I am doing with my life. I plot several things but I end up doing a different thing. I really want to share my story to somebody. I can't tell my best friend because her perspective towards me would change forever. I am not sure if that would be a good thing. I don't want to risk it. Besides, I have to tell her everything I am keeping if I decide to divulge what I am hiding. I think I can't afford that as part of my "story" is something that I cannot just tell other people as it involves the story of two more souls. I am getting tired of this. But I know I must not give up. I am really envious. At least they have each other.