dark knight

Sabihin niyo ng pagbubuhat ng bangko itong blog na ito, pero this is how I really feel.


During the past days / weeks / months people around me always tell me, "pwede ka na mag asawa." This is because I know how to deal with things. I know how to cook, I know how to listen, I know how to clean, I know how to change tires, I know how to drive and all sorts of stuffs. The problem is I don't have a damsel in distress. I can't see someone waiting for me at the other end. I realized this last night, when I was able to help out many folks, but at the end of the night, natulog akong lonely. Shit I hate this feeling. I don't know what I want. 


I am very positive that I can be a knight in shining armor. But without that person waiting for me at the other end, all I can be is just a dark knight.

just run away from these lies

That is what I want to do. A part of me wants to leave everything and start a new life. Hiding, hiding, hiding, that is what I am good at. I am just tired being alone. I hope I can tell a real person. I have someone in mind  but I don't know how he will react. Maybe escape is the best way to go. To be honest, sometimes I just want to die. Well I do not intend to commit suicide. I want natural death. My situation is very complicated. I know I am strong. But sometimes I need someone by my side.