I seriously think they did something

Late post

Need to keep my cool

I could have answered the question earlier but I just ditched it because I can't reveal what I feel. A friend told me, wala ka mapapala dun. But hell hirap yun. They are no longer at war state pero no discussions on their thing yet. Gluck to you dumbass.

Maybe she is right. The reason why he is gettibg to your nerves is because of jealousy. Pft. This life is so hard. Just so happy was able to breathe kahit papano.

As for * not sure. I think he likes #. Tingin ko talaga.

Should I sleep early? Or stay awake until I am dead tired?

right. for sure after tonight they are back in each others arms.

...

My prediction was right. They are back together. I felt it and saw some clues. Well I shouldn't be affected. But as they say, it is easy to be single if the people around you are single. Ted Mosby was able to survive Lily and Marshall. Well I think I can beat that record. My roommates are together. As in the two people sleeping next to me on a queen size bed are together. Beat that Ted.

I salute you Mosby for being able to stay. But I bet even him doesn't even know how tormented I feel. Easy for them to say that I need not to feel awkaward. But hell. You don't know how I feel.

I must keep my cool. Just two more months and I am free.

This weekend trip home was relaxing. If everyday is just like that when I am with them, then I won't have any problems staying there.

On another note, I was able to tell him. I think he is not interested. But I think he is ... Oh well

And someone knows...

dark knight

Sabihin niyo ng pagbubuhat ng bangko itong blog na ito, pero this is how I really feel.


During the past days / weeks / months people around me always tell me, "pwede ka na mag asawa." This is because I know how to deal with things. I know how to cook, I know how to listen, I know how to clean, I know how to change tires, I know how to drive and all sorts of stuffs. The problem is I don't have a damsel in distress. I can't see someone waiting for me at the other end. I realized this last night, when I was able to help out many folks, but at the end of the night, natulog akong lonely. Shit I hate this feeling. I don't know what I want. 


I am very positive that I can be a knight in shining armor. But without that person waiting for me at the other end, all I can be is just a dark knight.

just run away from these lies

That is what I want to do. A part of me wants to leave everything and start a new life. Hiding, hiding, hiding, that is what I am good at. I am just tired being alone. I hope I can tell a real person. I have someone in mind  but I don't know how he will react. Maybe escape is the best way to go. To be honest, sometimes I just want to die. Well I do not intend to commit suicide. I want natural death. My situation is very complicated. I know I am strong. But sometimes I need someone by my side. 

hide and seek

For someone like me who doesn't want to reveal to the world my true identity (bi), living daily is tough. I have to make sure that my defenses are always up so they won't think that I am different. I don't have anything against those that are completely out. It is just not my choice to be one. Besides it was just very recent that I accepted what I am. Well before this I was already ready to be in a relationship. Now, i dont know.

Given what i am and what i like, looking for a partner is so difficult. I prefer someone like me. But he is probably also hiding. I have one prospect. I think he has a crush on my friend. Sometimes i want to tell him "i know you like him, but sorry he is already taken. Guess what i am free, tayo na lang". Nah wont do that. I am not hundred percent sure he is like me and if he will like me. And i am not sure if i am ready for a relationship. Labo